Girls, Love Surprises. Esp., ME :) ♡

He brought these stuffs from Bukidnon. I really can't remember how i thank him when He hand me these. i mean, i was really surprised because I only expect him to give me key chains from the said place. haha. Whatever. 

♥

There comes a time in life,
when you walk away from all the dramas
and the people who create it.
Surround yourself with people who make you laugh.
Forget the BAD and focus on the GOOD.
LOVE people who treat you right.
PRAY for the ones who don't.
Life is too short to be nothing but happy.
Falling down is part of life, Getting back is living :)

You are Who you are :)

You are the books you read, the films you watch, the music you listen to,

the dreams you have, the conversation you engaged in.

You are what you take from these. You are the sound of the ocean.

the breath of fresh air, the brightest light and the darkest corner.

You are a collective of every experience you have in life.

So drown yourself in a see of knowledge and existence.

Let the words run through your veins and let the colors fill your mind. 

:))))))))))))

Just a thought ^_^

I should have never let myself get my hopes up.
Because in the end it's my hope that screws me over.
It gives me all these dreams of how things could be,
and then, just like that, they get taken away from you.
Yes, hope is a real cause of all my heartbreaks.

Neil Gaiman, The Sandman, Vol. 9: The Kindly Ones

Have you ever been in love?
Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. 
It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. 
They didn’t ask for it.
They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. 
It hurts. 
Not just in the imagination. 
Not just in the mind. 
It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
I hate love.”

Happy Birthday Mylaaaaabs :))

Sometimes, I think about how our friendship has survived in spite how busy we are in our lives and especially the distance between us. But then i smile and i realize that our bond is different. I feel sad for i am not around while you're celebrating your birthday, I'll be seeing you soon tho, another year older. And today, on your birthday, I remember everything that makes you special.

Happy Birthday Mylaaaaabs :*** ILOVEYOU HUROT :")))))) 

My Thing.

I am the kind of girl when I cry, I cry.
When I fall for someone, I fall hard.
People are telling me I'm too intense when it comes to emotions.

I stare into spaces.

If I were to ask what's wrong. I would just say nothing.
But really, I'm sitting and wondering what I've done wrong.
What I have done differently.
How I could change everything if I had the chance.
and if I had the chance to go back and do it over again, would it still be the same?

I am not good at relationships
I always manage to find flaws.
sometimes in others, but mostly on my own.
I foretell the ending, then go and create the cause
save my self, and end up alone.
But, I am always the one who loves more, that's my thing.

I don't give up easily.
I fight for what I want.
It takes a lot for me to actually give up for someone or something.
I just can't throw away all the time and hard work I put into it.
I can't just give up because times are hard, especially when that person means so much to me.
I keep fighting for what I want until I can't fight anymore.
Until giving up is the option i left.
But I guess if I love someone, I will let them move on.

Awakened.

Now, It's 2 am and I'm sitting alone at my study-table,in the dark
writing and aching for you.
While you are asleep on your own bed, far from here,
dreaming for someone else.
Pain did it to me every night.
This is more then death. >.<

But You Are Not Even Mine.

Last night, we lay on bed
You were holding my hands.
Sharing same blanket.
I can feel you breathing.
I was staring at the ceiling, wondering if you have any idea of what i am feeling.
Spending the best Bedtime with the guy who means so much to me
I don't know how it happened, was that a dream, again?
I don't want to fall asleep,
All i want is to look in his eyes.
That was not the place i expected to end up,

And it is not with Him i expected to be with after sundown and before sunrise.

'twas 'round 3am and we both are still awake,
We play like we're bothers and sisters at home.
And there goes again our mean talks.
I love our pointless conversations, they don't make a lot of sense though,
but they mean everything to me.
tear forms on my eyes, and i am trying to fight it back.
Nothing, I am just happy we're together, once more.

Little later, i fell asleep. We both do.
I woke up facing the window, I can see the ray of the sun, as if shinning for us.
I can still feel him, breathing, sleeping behind me.
And I was like "Boy, you give me everything just by breathing"
And I whisper a morning prayer while i am holding his left warm palm with mine.
I somehow thank God for waking up with Him, hand in hand.
And I feel it better when he's around, i wish we'd stay, like this.

We started fixing ourselves 'cause we have to go.
My mind scares me every time. I mean, Every second I'm with him
would add the pain I am going to suffer later.
because He is not even Mine.

I Kind Of Miss You :)

To Giant,

It's been a while since the last time we were together.
We don't text often anymore,
Everything has changed, it's plain to see
I might have done something wrong
I keep hoping that things are going to go back to the way they were.
those funny conversations even just for a minute.
When I let a day go without talking to you, that day was no good.

We're friends, i know.
But you also know that i feel more than that.
I didn't intend to ruin our friendship,
I even wish for it to be something better.
And because you think it's not for the best, I accept it already.
Just allow me to somehow make you feel how much I care for you.

I am sorry, I wasn't able to control my feelings for you from the start.
I am sorry, if we have to arrived in  this kind of situation.
None of these shoud've happened.
It hurts when we have to argue about everything just because we don't have the same point of views.
Pleas tell me, every time you throw all those heartbreaking words it will be worthy of the pain
I am afraid you'd walk away, It hurts just to imagine it.
And now, you're actually drifting away and I hate it because i cannot do anything about it.

I know this is random.
I just want to let you know how much i miss the things we used to do.
All our laughs, long talks, stupid mean conversations and all our jokes that somehow used to make my day.
Thank you, at least you make one of my days perfect.
I MISS YOU :)



You had me on my prayers,
Tiny

Best Summer Ever :')

It was summer. Yes, i know, it was summer.
We used to go out late at night.
We used to chill under those shinning stars.
The moon shines with its beaming light.
I’ve got the feeling like I belong.


You were siting beside me.
I’m with my phone, while you’re chatting with your friends.
We seldom talk, but that’s more than enough as long as you’re next to me.
I was feeling that way, i dunno why.
But i didn’t mind it that much.
Everything wasn’t right, but nothing’s wrong.
It’s the reason why I can sleep at night.
You have your own way of making me feel special.


Summer is over. But who would’ve expect we’ll end up this way also?
And infer that we are just good friends.
That’s it? aww, yes! that’s it.
I miss everything, all we used to do.
when you call me with a name “TINY”
And we kept each other up late at night,
exchanging text messages, and all those funny conversations.
I wish those didn’t have to change.
I am really enchanted to meet you,
but it will be more enchanting if we still have the same thing like what we had those summer times.
So far, So long, That was the best summer ever, INDEED! :))
I like you, you knew it because i told you.
And from that, there are so many feelings that i never experienced before.
There is nothing that I would like better than to hold on to you.
But I know it’s not for the best.
That was never a waste of time.
Oyes, it’s still worth the pain after you’ve left.

Wish you well.
I will always be here for you.
I will always be here to put a smile on your face, if you allow me

Happy18th :")

I assume, this would be another normal ordinary day.
The sun is shinning, so hot in my room.
I'm with my Bible to start my day, as usual.
I pray before i separate myself off my bed.
I wish, this day would be somehow memorable.
Since it's my 18Th.
I don't know how My Lord is going to work for that :))

Anyway, I am going to spend lunch with My Giant.
While waiting, I attended my calculus class.
My friends didn't know that i am going to meet Him, they would really get upset,
but i promised them i am going to treat them later :)

So, it's 15 minutes to 1pm and He arrived at Jollibee.
I am excited to meet him again, really. Heaven knows.
I am not expecting Him to bring me presents,
He's presence will be more than enough.
I saw him already from afar and i fixed my self,  and boom, i was already in his front.
i didn't sit beside him, oh, i can't :)

We do a lot of talking, chi-chats, exchange glance
oh, that was perfect, i looked in his eyes, i found bliss. no, heaven.
I thank God for this moment.
Can i call that a date?? @@ haha! OVERSTATEMENT :P

At least, it's a relief to find out that after the arguments we've been through lately,
things have been the same, like nothing had happened.
Everything gets back to normal,
Actually, the last time i was with him was when we take our dinner at Mcdo, 'twas a week ago! :)
After we've eaten our lunch, we go separate ways.
I am still going to meet my friends, we planned to go Paseo.
wait!! I don't know how to end this story
It's like i have more here in my mind, but i can't find the right words to apply.

The night after i do my devotion, i text him , I thank him for the time.
This is going to be another day to remember.
To thank God for
To cherish.
To treasure. (chos)
Even if sometimes I feel like every second I'm with Him is going to add the pain I'm going to feel later >.<

He Would've Known

All my life, I never believed in a fortune teller.
This year's summer,
Guess what he just told him.
He said that he's going to meet someone who will take care of him.
I did smile when he said it to me.

But look, i think he already met her. haha!
I really wanted to take care of him, a lot.
But i got this feeling that he's not allowing me.
I feel like I am annoying. @@

Well, I still make him feel that i care,
That i will be here for him.
I seldom text him,
But he's always on my prayers at night.
That would be more than enough
Because God can take good care of him so much more than i can. :))
You have God, and You have Me
Please take care of your self :)))